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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

bee season

Bee Season

Have u guys seen those movie? Richard gere, Juliet binoche, kate …lupa, tapi dia cantik. Richard gere bilang, kata mengandung rahasia jagad raya, the universe, from the secret of god till history of world.

Dipikir-pikir lagi, hm….make sense. Word possible to cure something. Seperti berdoa, kita menganggap ketika kita berdoa, kita berbicara pada Tuhan tapi pernahkah kita merasa, Tuhan berbicara pada kita lewat doa yang kita panjatkan? (

Word possible to cure something, to reach something, to bring the peaces together again, to brought something dark into the light, to cut the throat until to kill somebody innocent.



The best part of life

The best part of life…
Watching people around u make a weird sound,
feel happy when my dear friends pleased me,
when my best part of life send me words…
Sometime see unknown people drawn and reach them hands
watching people sucking they f***ingSh*t Bo** ass..
touch my fatso fingers and realize “hey mother-not-yet-a-mother, u are getting 30…!”
see my own fingers and feel grateful to not loosing it
talking to God and known God replayed
feel tired and excited in the same time
when I’m reading…
when I’m drawn to my bath tub and hold my breath, start to not think anything
see my fatso grown up




Sunday, May 28, 2006

MOTHER AND SON



“I sure do love you, NO CHARGE!”

A little boy came up to his mother in the kitchen one evening while she was fixing supper , and he handed her a piece of paper that he had been writing on. After his mom dried her hands on an apron, she read it, and this is what he said :
For cutting the grass : $ 5.oo
For cleaning up my room this week : $ 1.00
For going to d store 4 u : $ 5.00
For baby-sitting my kid brother while u went shopping : $ 2,5
For taking out the garbage : $ 1.00
For getting a good report card : $ 5.00
Total owed : $ 19.5

Well, his mother looked at him standing there, and the boy could see the memories flashing through her mind. She picked up the pen, turned over the paper he’d written on and this is what she wrote:
For the 9 months I carried u while u were growing inside me:
-no charge-
for all the nights that I’ve sat up with you, doctored and prayed for you:
- no charge-
For all the trying times, and all the tears that you’ve caused through the years:
-no charge-
For all the nights that were filled with dread, and for the worried I knew were a head:
-no charge-
For the toys, food, clothes, and even wiping your nose:
-no charge-
Son, when you add it up, the cost of my love is:
-NO CHARGE-

When the boy finished reading what his mother had written, there were big tears in his eyes, and he looked straight at his mother and said, “mom, I sure do love you”. And than he took the pen and in great big letters he wrote: “PAID IN FULL”

makhluk mungil


beberapa bulan kebelakang, gw sempat menikmati banget ke-single-an gw. nggak perduli orang heboh memikirkan kapan nikah?, heboh bertanya kapan kawin? dan etc. even waktu gw dilangkahin adek gw sendiri.
gw bilang ke diri gw, there's a time...there's a time.
tapi, beberapa hari yang lalu, gw menunggu persalinan adek gw, gw ada di dalam 'kehebohan' dan 'kesakitan' itu, dan pada waktu makhluk itu keluar dari rahim, gw takjub. jadi ini rasanya menjadi wanita seutuhnya. menyentuh jari mungilnya yang rapuh, kepalanya yang sedikit berlendir dan merah, dalam hati gw refleks bilang
"ya Allah, gw juga pengen punya makhluk itu"
Dan, sekarang, gw bukannya mendramatisir keadaan guys, tapi punya anak itu ternyata menyenangkan. ribet sih! tapi menghibur. gw aja yang nggak ikut punya baby, ikut kepikiran waktu jam kerja. si atta ngapain ya? kangen. dan pengennya cepat-cepat pulang ke rumah.
ada pikiran nyeleneh yang hinggap di kepala gw. kenapa sih mo punya anak yang keluar dari perut sendiri tuh ribet banget? ada proses bertemu orang lain, heboh bikin pernikahan dulu baru bisa hamil? hehehe...pikiran nggak mau ribet gw. masalahnya kalo menikah kan ada 2 orang yang harus dimengerti, diperhatikan, dirawat, ya kan? ya kan?
yah, hidup memang harus ribet ya?

namanya : Muhammad Fahmi Attanaya
weight : 4.3 kg
panjangnya : 51 cm
nama panggilan : atta ndut!